Song or suicide?

Mieleni ei ole yhtään selvempi kuin seuraava tekstikään, mutta anyways, i'll share it:

I'm staring at a broken wall,
finding myself depressed and crying all the time,
no one, not even you, knows the pain you left behind.

I follow my heart, and I bleed
I used to have this figured out, under control
but now all I seem to get is the other,
the worse.

I won't do it, it is not good enough.

Flashback.

There I was then, thinking about my future,
and loving it.
but then I had to think about your future, your dreams,
will i be part of it,
do I want to be a part of THOSE dreams of yours,
...yes, I do.

We should not end this here.

There were days when I used to believe in love,
not like I wrote it, but how I felt it
no one is gonna make me feel the way you do.

I don't want to look over my shoulder,
I know I can't see you there now, but I do wanna feel you
though you're not, I can think you're there.

and the wind blows through my heart.

I'll be waiting for the days when yet again all that still matters is the love and the laughter
those days when we play out in the rain,
and love it.

Is this a song or suicide?
a deep sigh shivers my body,
my heart is beating in silent sounds of loneliness.

Is it just me, or is it you too, I need to know,
'cause the truth is, you could slit my throat and I'd apologise for bleeding on your shirt
you've hurt me so many times, slivered me countless times,
but I love you no less.

I can wait, I can wait for you forever and ever,
there'll be more and more pieces of me to put together, but that's okay,
'cause when you're ready, when that time comes, I'm here to welcome you
with open heart.

So this is neither song nor suicide,
this is S.O.S.
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